In the vision God gave me on my birthday, I found myself held in the arms of God. I knew I was in a pre-birth realm. The grass and trees were the brightest shade of green and the sky was the brightest shade of blue. Somehow, nature looked brighter and more beautiful in this Heavenly realm than it did normally on the Earth. I found myself in a scene like from a movie as a pure soul held in the arms of God.
I saw God, standing there in the grass, but God looked like he was 30 or 40 feet tall. He wore a white robe with a pointy hood, so I couldn’t exactly see His face. I knew on the other side, God had no gender, but in this instance, it was like God was a Mother-Father God who held me in His arms like a baby. I was a pure soul, in His arms. When I say that, I mean that I didn’t have a body. If you think of one of those neon-pink plasma balls from the 90s, that’s what my soul looked like, in this instance.
I could see myself looking at this scene of me and God as though I was watching a movie, but I could also see from the angle of myself as a soul in God’s arms looking up at God. I had never felt so loved in my life, so free of fear, worries, and insecurities. I knew, for the first time in my life, what it felt like for my soul to be truly at rest. Rest feels like when the fear isn’t jumping around inside of your body so your heart can sit still. In Heaven, there’s absolutely no fear, so you simply feel this perfect love.
God held me and swayed, like I was a baby in His arms, but when God swayed, He would change. He would sway one way, and change to a Father, then sway the other way and change to a Mother. As God swayed changing from Father to Mother to Father to Mother, I knew God was communicating to me the truth about gender. Each gender lives inside of us because they live inside of God and are part of who He is. God can be like a Mother or a Father to us, because both come from Him. God is neither male nor female, yet both, and so are we.
As God held me and changed from male to female, from Mother to Father, I thought about all of the trans issues that were happening on the Earth. I’ve always loved trans people and grew up with gay culture, friends, and family members, but not everyone did. Growing up, at times, I even felt like I was a man in a woman’s body and I had friends come to me to express similar ideas. I could see that not everyone on Earth, especially those who were very religious, knew how to truly love those who were different. God and the angels communicated to me without words that this would be a huge test for humanity. It was like they were looking on the Earth saying, “Are they going to love them and make them feel accepted or not?”
I looked up from God’s arms and saw a black rectangular cut-out in the Earth’s atmosphere that lead to another pre-birth area, but this was the area above the Earth before our souls come into the Earth’s atmosphere and enter into our bodies. I couldn’t see what was up there above the Earth exactly, but I knew it was like a classroom where we go before we are able to incarnate onto the Earth in our physical bodies. The classroom is a place where people are taught by angels about the types of experiences they can have here.
I was in a secondary pre-birth realm. I was in the space before you are born into your mother’s womb and you become a child, but after you come from the classroom. Somehow, this is the space where God holds you and loves you before He releases you into your mother’s womb. God is like a mother to us because just like a mother, God has to set Her children free so they can live their lives on Earth. When we grow up, our mothers always hope we will come home to spend time with them, but it’s never a guarantee. There’s a risk in sending us out into the world, but God allows it because without it, we couldn’t be free.
Then, God released my soul into my mother’s womb, into the physical realm. I saw myself as though I was watching a movie become a toddler. I could see myself as a toddler dancing, but on the other side, I just looked like a being of pure, white Light. I was dancing, like I was dancing in front of God. As God watched me behind the veil of the pre-birth realm as I took delight in who God was. Eventually, I grew up, and I watched myself go out into the world. God, like my mom, released me from His love and care, so I could explore the world and truly be free.
You are made for Peace, Love, and Joy
God Bless,
Kathryn Elsie
