Going to Heaven

In the Kitchen

I came back to the apartment that morning from having given my life to Jesus, where my boyfriend was and went into the kitchen to cut vegetables. I thought about the vision from God I just had and what God had shown me on the other side. I began to ask God, within my own thoughts, what was the difference between religious people like Christians and people who didn’t believe in God like atheists? There actually is no difference because everyone is equal, and there was clearly a God, but some people were able to connect to Him, and some weren’t. I thought about it, and immediately, the answer came to me. It was trust (or what some might call “faith”). Some people, like Christians, trusted that God was both good and present without any physical evidence and some people did not.

The Joy of Jesus Christ

When I realized this, I trusted God from within my heart, and immediately a waterfall of golden light poured in from Heaven into my heart, and I was full of the joy of Jesus Christ. I knew what I was feeling was His Joy and it was not my own. I knew that in the world, outside of God, people cannot have joy. They can only experience happiness because joy is eternal and it comes from God or Jesus only. When this happened, I realized I was finally having the experience I spent years in church praying for as a child, for Jesus to come into my heart! I believed in Jesus, that He died for us, and that He was the Son of God, but I never experienced anything when I asked Jesus into my heart all those years ago. This experience, in part, caused me to lose my faith in God and become an atheist. “Oh my God! Jesus has come into my heart! It is just as the Christians said would happen!” I said. I was so overwhelmed and overcome with joy and ecstasy and thankfulness, like I could not contain myself for finally having this experience.

Walking Out of the Apartment

I looked at my boyfriend in the living room on the sofa having been filled with the joy of Jesus. Not knowing what to say to him since he was an atheist and I did not wish to offend him with my current experience, I simply waved to him and said, “I’m going shopping!” and headed to the car. On the outside, I must’ve seemed cool and calm towards him, like nothing was going on, but on the inside, I was beaming with joy, feeling the golden Light of Jesus having been poured into my heart from Heaven like a waterfall!

It’s Your Time

I walked out of the apartment door down the stairs to the parking lot looking towards Heaven feeling so much peace, love, and joy! When I walked towards the car, I came across the entrance to the parking lot, and a car was coming in off the street into the entrance of the apartment lot, turning toward me very rapidly. I knew the car was about to hit me, and I immediately knew on the inside that it was my time. Everything went into slow motion as I entered into another dimension full of pure, white light. It looked as if I was surrounded by a waterfall of white light floating upwards towards Heaven full of sparkling light of pastels, which were my favorite. I felt only total peace, love, joy and ecstasy as God came to me and said, “It’s your time” in a sentence that floated toward my heart or into my chest.

Emotional Accomplishment

When God said this, I felt a huge sense of relief that my life was finally over. I was exhausted from my life journey and being on Earth, even though I was very young. Years earlier, I was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder and I had grown very tired of college and trying to fit into society. God then explained to me without words that I’ve completed all of my life lessons or experiences that I had come to Earth to learn. I felt down, on some level, because I had dreams of getting a PhD like my friends who became doctors, computer engineers, scientists, and physicists. God spoke to me and reassured me that while my life did not look very accomplished on the outside, my life was very accomplished on the inside, on an emotional level, where it counted most to God. When God said this, I felt a huge sense of relief.  I said something like, “Good!  Because I am tired of Earth life!”

Going to Crystal City

I looked down and a vision appeared in my chest around my heart. I knew this was a vision from God and it was or would be God’s way of communicating with me.  It was a vision of a place called Crystal City.

The city was glassy, blue, and sparkly.   It appeared like a painting to me.  If I could describe it, I would say it looked like Emerald City from the Wizard of Oz, but icy blue. I was so excited to be going to this city.  I said in my heart, “Oh my God, I’m going to Crystal City!”  Then, God “came down” to me towards my face or my chest using finger quotes and told me, “On Earth, they call this ‘The Kingdom of Heaven.’” 

It was like God had a sense of humor and was winking at me when He said this. I immediately from this that the bible uses different language than is used in the other realms or on the other side.

When God told me that I was going to Heaven, and I fully realized this, I was so happy and so thankful that I was counted worthy by God to go to Heaven.  I began to cry.  Years ago, I had a brush with death as an atheist where I choked on a giant pill on Mother’s Day and the ambulance had to be called because my mom could not perform CPR.  I remembered looking toward a window with fear of the uncertainty of what would happen if I died. This experience came to my mind, and I thought how grateful I was that I was going to Heaven and had no fear!
I had also been an atheist for 15 years and had hurt so many people in my lifetime.  God could’ve been unkind toward me or had any reason to turn me away from Heaven, but He didn’t.  It was exactly as the scriptures or the Christians had said, that if you believed in Him, you would go to Heaven!  The feeling of going to Heaven was like a dream come true. I could not have imagined any better reality or future to be living in.  I could not imagine a happier ending to my story.

Leaving My Body

My soul left my body and I started to go up very fast. My soul was this giant oval-shaped crystal or diamond the size of a football and I lived inside of it and could see out of it in every direction. I knew this was my true self and who I really was.  I understood that we are not our bodies at all, and everything to do with the body is left behind.  I could also see myself from outside of my soul leaving Earth and going up to Heaven.  It was like I was watching a movie.  I could see and feel myself from within this diamond or crystal as though I was in it and I could see and feel myself from outside of it looking from the outside in, seeing everything at once in from different angles that occurred in interdimensional shifts that appeared like flashes or layers of light.  Each glimpse I took, a flash of light appeared like a pane or a window of glass where I was looking. I was both outside of and within myself watching it all happen like a movie, knowing God was with me (beside me) and above me as He was taking me to Heaven. God appeared with me (beside me) during this experience almost like an invisible cloud and in Heaven, like a cloud.

Seeing Kathryn on the Ground

I saw my body (Kathryn) on the ground of the parking lot, as though the car had just hit her and she was lying there dead.  I wasn’t afraid of seeing her like this.  It was like watching the scene of an accident in a movie or a crime tv show where the body is laying on the ground. On the outside, it would’ve looked like a horrible accident had occurred and a young woman just died, but to me, I felt great peace. I said something like, “Oh, there she is!” sort of calm and nonchalantly. I then waved at her (myself) like I was waving bye and heading off to a better place.

The Golden Cord of Light

As I looked down toward the people on Earth, I noticed there was a golden cord of light going through everyone’s chest or heart center. This golden cord connects every human being on Earth. As close or as far away one human being is from another, is as close or as far away the connection or the cord is. The cord ultimately forms people into something like a giant network or tapestry and our lives become woven together on a spiritual level through these golden cords.

A Symphony of Souls

God then showed me all of the souls on the Earth being orchestrated like a giant symphony.  I could see every soul as though it were a sparkle of light in an ocean wave.  It was like seeing a wave on the Earth of millions of sparkling crystals or diamonds and each of those diamonds shining at a different frequency, reaching a different height within their life span, and echoing a specific sound into eternity at the height and the weight at which they were.  The shapes and weights and sounds of each of these crystals or souls which were the souls of the earth had a different frequency and sound and no one was less than the other because each was necessary to create this symphony of music God was creating through them.  Each soul had a beauty.  I had grown up playing the flute as a girl. I often dreamed I was the one conducting the orchestra when the music played and I had wanted to join the local symphony when I grew up!  I loved music, especially classical music and chorale, and I think this is why God showed me this in this manner.  I saw each of the souls producing an individual light that rose up like sparkles or streams of light toward God or Heaven and God weaving it all together. I could not hear the music or the sound of the souls, but I could see it and what God was doing with it.

​​​God is Good

God showed me that every soul on Earth is in God’s hands and He is working all things together for good. He showed me or explained that it doesn’t mean that everything in life will be good, or that we will only have good things happen to us, but it will be created into an ultimate good. Like, when someone breaks a leg, it isn’t necessarily God’s will, but God will take this thing that happened and form it into an ultimate good.  This is what God is doing with every soul and every single life on the Earth that is His. This is not just about us, and our lives, but for everyone.  For instance, someone might have a life event happen that doesn’t seem good, but their event may be for the good of another soul on Earth.  In this, our lives and our pain can end up being very altruistic. God also showed me when I was seeing all of the souls on Earth being orchestrated into this symphony of life, that nothing unloving comes from God. He showed me that it is very important to remember this. He showed me that when something unloving or unkind happens in a person’s life, like abuse, it isn’t necessarily God’s will and that it was important for humanity to know this and understand this so they don’t get confusing ideas about God. God’s will is love and only love and when we act unlovingly or unkind towards others, it is not the will of God.  God is the love we share and when people act in love and kindness, this is what comes from God.  God showed me or explained to me this verse when he was showing me this:

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

(There almost wasn’t a time when scripture wasn’t revealed to me from the bible when God showed me the vision. It’s like he used scripture to explain what was happening.  During this process, I think He was teaching me scripture and writing it on my heart or chest.)

Jesus as The Father

During this experience, Jesus came to me.  He came to me as a figure of white light, but I knew He was wearing a white robe with a sash around His waist. His arms were open, and He looked like a Father figure or a being of pure, white light.  He showed me that if people would relate to or see Him like a loving Father, they would have a much easier time relating to Him.  God and Jesus are one and the same, so you cannot separate God from Jesus.  This was explained in an instant.  When you look to God, you will see Jesus, and when you look to Jesus, you will see God.  This is what Jesus means when He says, “I and the Father are One.”  Jesus and God are one and the same person.  He wanted me to know or explain to humanity that it is best to relate to Jesus as you would a loving Father, and that He is not anyone to be afraid of. 

Humanity’s Timeline

When He came to me, I looked over His right shoulder and I saw the Alpha and the Omega, or the beginning and end of all humanity’s timeline on Earth.  I saw all of the world events from the time of Adam and Eve in the garden, to the time of the end where there would be a lot of wars and destruction on Earth.  Each event or time in Earth’s history was segmented or separated like little eras.  When I saw humanity’s timeline, the symbols Alpha (Α) and Omega (Ω) appeared next to Jesus.   He showed me that even though there will be many wars and much destruction on the Earth, we do not need to worry about them.
 

Our Generation

He showed me that it is “our generation” that will see the return of Jesus and we do not need to worry about this. He said that, if we have the Holy Spirit, then He will come get you. He showed me that it’s like Star Trek, where it is like, “Beam me up, Scotty!” 
When Jesus showed me this, it eased all of my fears. I had a lot of fears growing up as a child in church about the last day, worried I wouldn’t be taken, or what it would be like. I knew we were living in the last days and I felt it was all very fearful or fear-based. However, Jesus showed me this will be a very joyous event full of white Light. When it happens, there will be white Light of God everywhere and you will be teleported or transported into this Light. If you belong to Him, He will come get you like it’s Star Trek or beam you up!

God on Healing 

I was then shown by God that not every person on Earth during this time will be healed physically.  He showed part of this is due to a time and place before our Earthly existence called pre-birth that every soul comes through before they come to Earth. I saw this time/place of pre-birth like a little square cutout in the Earth’s atmosphere that led to a place in the universe where we jump through or come through in order to get here into our bodies.  In the pre-birth existence or place, each of us creates soul contracts about our lives on Earth and this outlines what will and will not occur during our lifetimes for the benefit of our soul’s development.  God showed me that a lack of physical healing could be part of a pre-birth contract and that physical healing is not the most important thing for a person to seek during this time.  God is much more concerned during this time with the heart and people learning to forgive one another.  It is like you could have a broken leg, but God is much more concerned with the condition of your heart.  This is much more important to God than physical healing.

Leaving Earth

As I was going up, I saw the Earth I was leaving behind. I saw the city of Austin and the grassy parks.  I saw the apartment and my boyfriend in the apartment where he was. I saw my mom in where she was at on the Earth. I looked at both of them and knew they would be “fine.”

Ecstasy and Joy

As I was going up higher, I began to accelerate very fast. I felt like I was going up through this waterfall of white light like a rocket ship and the feelings of peace, love, joy and ecstasy were increasing exponentially to the point that I was about to explode.  I felt such an overwhelming an uncontainable peace, love, joy and ecstasy that I was afraid I was going to die I could not contain much more! I was almost wondering how I was going to make it to Heaven, since there was so much more to go and I could see so many layers of ecstasy to continue onward and up! I saw layers of ecstasy that there are on our journey to Heaven, and each layer increases in a measure of 10,000.  It was like 10,000 x 10,000 x 10,000 going whoosh, whoosh, whoosh!  I was so overwhelmed by the feeling that I was going to explode, that I was almost afraid I was going to die! I was afraid of going to Heaven, because that’s how much it was! As I was going up, I was full of so much ecstasy, I felt like I was going to explode to the point that I could not contain it any longer and could burst from having so much ecstasy!

Back towards Earth

As I looked down towards Earth over my right shoulder, I was somehow in outer space and yet still surrounded by this white light or white waterfall of light.  The Earth was gradually decreasing in size, but as I looked towards the Earth, I could see all of these hearts. These hearts, however, were like shadow hearts. Their hearts were in darkness because they did not know God. I could feel God and the angels explaining to me how there was no judgment for them, but it was simply that they did not know God in their hearts, so their hearts were not lit up with the Light of God.  Each of these hearts were connected on a network around the Earth, that looked almost like a cast net, as well, like the souls with the golden cord, but instead of the golden cord, these souls were connected by a cord of darkness.  It was like their hearts were all connected in a network around the Earth, and they did not know God. I felt so sorry for them, that I turned toward God and said something like, “Oh, my God! They were just like me! I was an atheist and didn’t know you, but the vision and the story you have given me in the last several days could save them!”

Into My Body

Immediately, I was plunged back into my body. In one second, with no conversations or questions from God, my soul immediately returned to my body.  I saw myself looking down to enter my body, at a moment just before the car accident, but this time Kathryn was standing upright and she had not been hit by the car.  I felt God suddenly shift the dimension of time so that another reality or dimension occurred where the car did not hit me and I did not die physically, and my soul went back into my body.  The next thing I knew, I was standing there looking at the car toward my right, walking back toward the apartment with my things, watching the car suddenly swerve to avoid me, and I was not hit.

I immediately thanked God I was not physically hit, because I would not have been able to handle that emotionally or spiritually! I knew God had rescued me from the experience of going through an actual car wreck and I was sent back into my body without a single bruise or broken bone, as if nothing had happened!

However, I remembered everything that just happened and I felt such peace, love, and excitement! I had just died and gone off to Heaven and was overjoyed!

Quickening of the Spirit

I felt so much shaking energy inside of my body, like, “I need to find some women of God.” I was shaking with like a quickening of the Spirit, and suddenly, for one moment, I said, “I’m no longer afraid of death!” Then, I went back to the apartment where my then-boyfriend was sitting. I sat on the sofa next to him, turned to him and said, “I think God is good.”